random thoughts

I am awake at 8:17 on a Saturday, I didn't go to sleep until after 2am. This entire week I was not out of bed until after 11am. What the hell.

Sara Palin is irrelevant. She needs to go home, bake some cookies, raise her 50 kids, who I am sure are insured, and shut the F up.

I go on my boards at thebump, and I read about all the phases that babies are going through, and the trouble with breast feeding ect. So now of course I am petrified that the breast feeding won't work. I really really want it to work.

I lay on my side to sleep, because I can't lay on back as I lose my breath and you aren't really supposed to, for obvious reasons I don't sleep on my stomach. So every 1.5 hours the muscle below my hip hurts like hell from all the weight so I have to turn over. I have to wake up fully to do so because I can't flip like I used to. I am determined to be a lot skinnier with the next baby.

I sound like a whiny baby in all of my posts lately. Unfortunately this is my therapy right now, and I am pretty sure not a lot of people are reading this crap anyway :)

On a good note, we are going to my mom's for dinner tomorrow for a dinner I grew up with and have been craving like mad. I am excited, and I am excited just to hang out with my 'rents. I would be lost without my mother.

Have a great weekend, even if we have to wear our sweaters, which I am not so secretly excited about.

bed rest week whatever the hell week it is

So I went to the Dr. on Wednesday. I was thinking that she was going to send me back to work since I have contracted since being on two pills a day. I was nervous about it, but at the same time we need the money. Never mind that moving more than 15 minutes at a time causes great discomfort and the baby is getting lower and lower. Anyway, she measured me, listened to his heart, and we spoke a little. Then I said "am I going to be going back to work", and without any hesitation on her part my Dr. said "no". She said "we will be taking it week by week, but most likely you will not being going back until after the baby arrives". Wow. I am glad in some ways, but terrified in others. Mostly terrified because how in the hell are we going to afford this????????? There's not a lot I can do about it, as the most important thing is to keep Austin and I healthy. So initially I was secretly glad that about that decision.
Jump to two days later and I am a mess. I am bored, nothing interests me but watching TV and then I get annoyed because there's only so much I can watch. I don't want to read, which is so super weird for me. I only shower every other day (TMI). My poor husband, I cling to him like no body's business when he gets home and he needs to decompress too. Plus I look really hot to him with my stained shirt and my hair that looks like the scene in "There's something about Mary".
I also have a huge confession. In Oct. I got a speeding ticket, and I contested it, and they said to damn bad. So it's like a $400 ticket. So I made payment arrangements and I made payments. Well then I started losing what mind I had left and I forgot to pay a couple months. Now all of a sudden I am sent to collections, AND I am being threatened to have my license suspended. So I have to make calls and figure it all out. #1, there's nothing I hate more than making phone calls. I need a personal assistant that will work for free to do this for me. My husband hates calling too so that's no help.
#2, now I have to pay twice as much on month than I was before, and all on one income. One more burden for my husband to bear, because of me. I am a lucky girl that he puts up with me.

So here's hoping that I won't go stark raving mad in the next 7 weeks. That's right I STILL HAVE 7 WEEKS TO GO.

I am also having major anxiety about what the hell am I gonna do with a baby! I am grateful that next weekend is our birthing classes, I am hoping this will help a great deal.

Ok so after reading this, please no body call to commit me.
Thanks

The end

bed rest update

Let me start out by saying what everyone is talking about. It is too f***** hot here. I cannot handle it. I am so grateful to my in law's who have AC, otherwise I may not be here right now.

Secondly, I went to the Dr. yesterday. He said "have we met before"? I was irritated. I mean I know my Dr. is out of town and this poor man is seeing a TON of pregnant women right now. I just feel like with everything that I have had going on, someone ought to remember me. Last time I was in his office, I was there for hours being monitored. Anyway, he said everything looks good. I am still measuring two weeks ahead, which I found out means I have more amniotic fluid that normal, but not too much to be concerned. I am still on bed rest, I see my Dr. next Wednesday.

I am really hoping the temps calm down very soon, I am having a hard time handling this even with my in laws and the AC. I also feel for my husband who works in a warehouse with no AC. They do have a rule that if it hits 90 or above his workplace give them Popsicles. He has actually gone to the store and bought Popsicles for his work peeps too. Cause that's the kinda guys he is. I was craving ho ho's and corn nuts last night, and he obliged me. Hard to believe I have only gained 5 pounds through this pregnancy.

Hope everyone is staying as cool and safe as possible.

baby shower, pre term labor, and the heat wave from hell

Where do I begin?
Let's start with Saturday, my mom chipped in(with prompting from my sister because mom's hip isn't so great) to hire someone to come in and clean the house. My husband has been burning the candle at both ends and I didn't want to add more to his plate.
Becki came on Saturday and did a great job, I was most excited about my bathroom being clean and sparkly. The reason for the deep clean is that my baby shower was Sunday.

Sunday was the baby shower and it was fantastic, and so much fun. Before the shower mom and I got pedicures, as I can't reach my feet :)
Noelle, Kristy, and Shannon threw the shower for me. They did a great job, it was perfect. I was also excited to see my girlfriends, some of whom I haven't seen in awhile. Austin was spoiled rotten, we received some fantastic things for him. Dan went through all of the gifts, he loved them all too. Everyone admired the great job he has done on the nursery. I really need to post some pictures.


Anywhoo I woke up today with the familiar cramping, took my med thinking it would stop. I took a shower, and was about to call my in laws as they have AC at their house. I laid down after the shower because I was still in pain, and fell back asleep. I woke up again at 11:30 and I was still in pain so I called my Dr.'s office. I spoke to the nurse and after a series of questions I was told to go to the hospital because there wasn't a Dr available in office today.
I called my in law's, they weren't home but my sister in law was, and she and my niece rescued me.
Got in the room, and they had to do lady things that I won't go into, did another ultrasound, drew blood, did an IV, and hooked me up to the monitor. I was contracting of course, so then I had the fun shot that makes me shake even though I am not cold.
Dan was able to get off a little early and come down to relieve my sis in law and niece.

So now I have to take my contraction meds twice a day, and it looks like I have a UTI so I get to take antibiotics too.
I go back to the Dr. tomorrow and we will go from there. I am guessing that I am not going back to work anytime soon.
Anyone have anything I can do for them while lying down???

bed rest the next chapter

So I went back to the OB yesterday, and I am still contracting. I thought as much, but I was also hoping it was all in my head, and that it was just third trimester stuff. Alas no, I was contracting. Austin is doing well, moving like a champ, his heartbeat is great. So I am on modified bed rest for another week. I am already going out of my head. Thank goodness for my mom who spent the almost the whole day taking care of me. I am really lucky. I have a good role model for years to come.

On a couple of good notes, I got my new glasses yesterday. I am so excited, I can see out of these. My old glasses were almost as bad as my eyesight without contacts or glasses. I have to wear glasses for three months straight because I have something weird going on with my left eye. I wanted to get them anyway, can't imagine fiddling with contacts and trying to take care of a newborn. Without glasses or contacts I am blind as a bat.

Secondly my baby shower is this weekend! I am very excited to see my girlfriends, a few I haven't seen in awhile. My husband has been great, he has started cleaning the house, which looks like a bomb went off.

I will keep everyone posted, as I am sure you are glued to my blog for the next chapter! :)

well that was fun

As I have said before, I have had some increased anxiety throughout this pregnancy. It has calmed down, but still there.
Last night I had dinner about 4, so I could eat with my husband before I went to work. After I went to work, I felt Austin kick as usual, and then I took a nap before work. Went to work, came home ect. I hadn't felt him move since 4ish, and he usually is a big mover. So I got all worried, tried laying on my side,ect nothing worked. I finally fell asleep, but woke up when Dan went to work. I decided to call the nurse, who told me I should come in.
So about 6am this morning, I went to Valley. The OB has a triage ect, so I was hooked up to a monitor, and I heard his heartbeat loud and clear. Sweet relief. So I laid there for a bit, and then they told me I was contracting and they wanted to monitor that. So I laid on my side and drank ice water for a half hour. Then they laid me on my back because Austin was moving and they had to make sure to continually listen to him ect. So the Dr. comes back in, and says they are going to give me a shot to calm my uterus down. Oh by the way, this will make your heart beat fast. OK great, thanks. I was also super nauseous. So I laid there for awhile, watching TV. Thankfully I could text Dan the whole time. Half hour later they told me contractions stopped (hallelujah) and I could go home, and rest for the day. So I came home and passed out for about three hours. Just had some lunch, he moved, although still not as much as I am used too. I suppose that's because he's getting bigger, and running out of room. I now have to count fetal movements.

I so didn't want to be the over dramatic pregnant woman, I was determined not to go to the hospital until it was time for him to come. I am mad at myself for being dramatic, but I also feel like I needed to follow my gut as it were.

I wish I was rich, I would lay in bed with one of those monitors on me at all times. Chances are I would probably freak out anyway, cause that's how I roll. I will be so grateful when he comes (and not until he's fully cooked), but I suppose that comes with a whole new can of worms. At least when he is here I can keep my hand on his chest at all times.

For now, I am going back to bed, and probably cuddle with one of my furry babies, if not all of them:)

blue

I have been feeling blue the last couple of days. Can never seem to get ahead with the finances, of course if either of us had an education past HS we might be doing better. There are 3 LPN's at work that just got into RN school and I am so happy for all of them, and a little bit jealous. The only thing standing in my way is me, but that's another story. Now being pregnant it's not like I can get up and got to school at this point anyway. Besides that my patience is at an all time low. I hate going into work, mostly because I am so tired of people who are so rude, whiney, and stupid. I dread going in, even tho my hours have been cut, which has been so great. I love the people I work with, just not the people who walk in the door. I hope this goes away after pregnancy or I am screwed. I should be thanking god that I even have a job and roof over my head.
I don't know, just feeling overwhelmed with how much is going on and what is expected of me.
My poor husband isn't his usual jovial self either, which doesn't help. We can't both be grumpy at the same time, but we are, and it's fun times here.
We are trying to sell the fridge that we never use, I went to the garage to give it a clean up, thinking it would be no big deal. Well it was and it's gross and I have to haul all the parts upstairs to clean in the sink. I just started crying. I don't think I can handle one more demand, or one more person being rude, or anything for that matter.
I can always tell when the hormones are taking a spike, I think this is one of those times, don't you ?

On a good note, a couple of weeks ago, Dan felt Austin kick for the first time. I was so happy. He said "it feels weird", yeah try feeling it from the inside!! I love feeling my son move, it makes me smile everytime. I think I might miss that part of being pregnant, no other parts tho I can tell you that!